I always come to a point in any relationship- not necessarily romantic- where I consider laying it all on the line. It usually comes when I'm tired of fighting, or when I don't think there's much else to lose. Alternately, it might be when I feel most open or optimistic with someone. If things are going so well, I might as well tell them everything and see how it goes. I think to myself, why not? I should just tell them everything. Every motivation, every detail, every secret. I never do.
I should. I should say, 'I really didn't want to be your friend, I just didn't have anyone else to turn to, and now things have gone sour, so let's just walk away.' I should say, 'I've just been seeing how long this dating thing would work out, but I really haven't invested any emotions since the beginning.' Or 'I'm totally fucked up in the head, please forgive that and love me even when I have no mascara on.'
I'm not sure what I'm waiting for.
